I laught at the tales about all the romatic loves; kept thinking that those are ridiculous. Satring at people around me, there is a great, well, I could have said that, a GREAT percentage that I won't fall in love with someone....at least for 10 years, or even longer..

 

I can't understand the expression between couples, well, however, Mom keeps telling all the theories she knows. I just can't...

and I won't..

i barely know why it appeared to be 3172 lines long, however, because it is imagined within a consciousness which has learned to expect that the soul will find and ultimate home, certainly, I'm in. Sitting inn front of the laptop, kicking myself on the row, nervous yet anticipated, there was a moment that I was eagerly to figure out the way of the man, Beowulf, who played his whole life in the ancient poem BEOWULF actually lived along with..There was a moment...

重新再来一次，丢掉以前的杂念。还有一个月，重新再来一次。思绪会更清晰。。。

 

丢掉自己以前的迷恋。。重来一次。。。。

 

只有一个月了。。

老人家说。。。。12年。。1，000年。。一万年。。。是轮回。。。。可是。。我为什么。。

17年前的九月二日是星期二。。。（不知道吧。。。）应该是了。。。凌晨二点十分零二秒我被医生从老妈的肚子里拉出来。。。

17年后的九月二日是星期二。。。（绝对是。。。）。。。凌晨二点十分。。我和老妈一起整理房间。。。。

轮回阿。。绕过了大半个地球。。。。。

我。。。17了。。。。老了老了。。。。

终于。。。搬完了。。。。。。。

新家阿。。。。。。。

我知道，自己选择了这条路；

我知道，我不该抱怨；

我知道，我该勇敢地面对所有的困难；

我知道，我该坦然地接受所有的结果；

我知道，时间与努力的积累和结合，将会弥补知识上的空缺；

我知道，我会和别人拥有截然不同的人生；

所以我知道-----努力吧，

                    只有靠自己了

THESE days in Peshawar, where al-Qaeda was founded 20 years ago, the only glimpse of Osama bin Laden comes on little green packets of safety matches strewn around town by American officials. They bear the portrait of the world’s most wanted man, along with the promise that America will pay up to $5 million for information leading to his capture.

It is an appropriate image. Like one of these matches, Mr bin Laden caused a flash with the September 11th attacks on America in 2001, then vanished into smoke, leaving a burning trail of militancy stretching from Indonesia to Afghanistan, Iraq, north Africa and Europe. And despite the reward offered for his capture, now $25m, nobody has yet betrayed the whereabouts of “the Sheikh”, who periodically emerges on the internet to deliver some doom-laden warning to the West.

 

Nearly seven years into America’s “global war on terror”, the result remains inconclusive. Al-Qaeda lost a safe haven in Afghanistan, but is rebuilding another one in Pakistan; Mr bin Laden is at large, but Khalid Sheikh Mohammed, who masterminded September 11th, has gone on trial in Guantánamo Bay; many leaders have been captured or killed, but others have taken their place; al-Qaeda faces an ideological backlash, but young Muslims still volunteer to blow themselves up.

True, America has not been struck since 2001, but European capitals have been bombed. A number of plots have been averted on both sides of the Atlantic. Al-Qaeda and its nebula of like-minded groups still pose the most direct threat to the security of Western countries, and of many others besides. Western intelligence agencies are convinced al-Qaeda still wants to develop non-conventional weapons, whether chemical or biological agents or “dirty bombs” that create a cloud of radioactivity. In Iraq bombs are already mixed with chlorine gas. Even a rudimentary nuclear bomb, say the spooks, might not be beyond the reach of terrorists.

Al-Qaeda has built on decades of Middle Eastern terrorism. Palestinian groups internationalised their violence in the 1970s; Hizbullah used suicide-bombers against the Americans in Lebanon back in 1983; Palestinian suicide-bombers sought to inflict maximum civilian casualties in Israel from 1994; and Algerians who hijacked a French airliner the same year tried to fly it into the Eiffel Tower but were foiled.

 

In those days, though, attacking Western targets was part of a local nationalist or sectarian fight. Al-Qaeda’s dark genius was to weave these strands together with the tools of globalisation to create a networked movement with a single worldwide cause: jihad against America. Conventional terrorist groups, such as the Basque ETA movement or even Lebanon’s Hizbullah, often keep their violence in bounds to avoid alienating their political supporters. But global jihadists, without a domestic constituency, seek to maximise civilian casualties for spectacular effect. Counting the victims is tricky. Attacks on Western civilians have dropped, but the routine use of suicide-bombings has raised the slaughter, mostly of Muslims, to appalling levels .

Al-Qaeda’s ideology was forged by one big victory and two decades of failures. Disparate Arab fighters who helped Afghan ones evict Soviet forces from Afghanistan in 1989 were initially elated, but became dejected by the ensuing civil war and the failure of violent campaigns in Egypt, Algeria and elsewhere. Many extremists decided to end the bloodletting. But a cadre of wandering jihadists gathered in Afghanistan under the protection of the Taliban and decided to redirect their ire from the “near” enemy to the “far” one.

The rationale was explained by Ayman al-Zawahiri, al-Qaeda’s co-founder, in his memoirs, entitled “Knights Under the Prophet’s Banner”. The “Jewish-Crusader alliance”, as he called the West, would never allow its local allies to be toppled. The answer was to attack America directly.

Such tactics would have several advantages, Mr Zawahiri said. They would deal “a blow to the great master”. Given the depth of anti-Americanism across the Muslim world, they would “win over the nation”. And the attacks would sow discord between Western countries and their local allies, presenting America with a dilemma: withdraw support from its friends or become directly involved in the Middle East. If America took military action, Mr Zawahiri argued, “the battle will turn into clear-cut jihad against the infidels,” which Muslims were bound to support.

Seen in this light, one of the objectives of the September 11th attacks was to provoke the Americans into invading Muslim lands. But if al-Qaeda intended to trap America in Afghanistan, its plan went badly awry, at least initially. The Taliban fell quickly in 2001 and al-Qaeda’s followers were forced into hiding.

A hubristic America, however, then walked into a trap of its own making by invading Iraq in 2003. It got rid of a dangerous dictator but gave the jihadists a popular cause against American occupiers in the Muslim heartland. For a while the jihadists thought they could carve out a base in Iraq from which to destabilise the region. That danger may now have been averted. Helped by al-Qaeda’s excesses, a bloodied America seems to be fighting its way out of the worst of the troubles it created for itself.

 

The beginning of the end?

So terrorism experts are now debating whether al-Qaeda is starting to burn itself out. “On balance, we are doing pretty well,” Michael Hayden, the director of America’s Central Intelligence Agency, told the Washington Post in May. “Near strategic defeat of al-Qaeda in Iraq. Near strategic defeat for al-Qaeda in Saudi Arabia. Significant setbacks for al-Qaeda globally—and here I’m going to use the word ‘ideologically’—as a lot of the Islamic world pushes back on their form of Islam.”

Many thought he was being overly optimistic. Had General Hayden himself not given warning two months earlier that the restoration of an al-Qaeda haven in Pakistan’s tribal belt constituted a “clear and present danger” to the West?

A related argument has been provoked by “Leaderless Jihad”, a book by Marc Sageman, a counter-terrorism consultant. He argues that al-Qaeda’s core leadership has been “neutralised operationally”. The bigger danger now comes from loose groups of Muslims in the West who radicalise each other and carry out autonomous, self-financed attacks.

This thesis has come in for strong criticism, particularly from Professor Bruce Hoffman of Georgetown University. He notes that al-Qaeda’s imminent death has often been heralded in the past, only to be contradicted by the sound of new explosions. Many plots in Europe have direct connections back to Pakistan, he notes.

Part of the problem lies in al-Qaeda’s diffuse nature. Its core members may number only hundreds, but it has connections of all kinds to militant groups with thousands or even tens of thousands of fighters. Al-Qaeda is a terrorist organisation, a militant network and a subculture of rebellion all at the same time.

To explain the movement, many experts draw parallels with globalisation. Some describe it as a venture-capital firm that invests in promising terrorist projects. Others speak of it as a global “brand” maintained by its leaders through their propaganda, with its growing number of “franchises” carrying out attacks.

The rise of al-Qaeda’s stateless terrorism does not mean that the old state-sponsored variety has disappeared. Libya, which once supported the IRA and other violent causes, may now be co-operating with the West, but Iran, among others, supports both Palestinian militants and Lebanon’s Hizbullah movement. Should Iran redirect Hizbullah towards a global terrorist campaign against the West—for instance, if the country’s nuclear sites were bombed—the effect might be more devastating than any of al-Qaeda’s works.

For the moment, though, the most immediate global threat comes from the ungoverned, undergoverned and ungovernable areas of the Muslim world. These include the Afghan-Pakistani border, the parts of Iraq still in turmoil, the Palestinian refugee camps in Lebanon, and swathes of Yemen, Somalia, the western Sahara desert and the chain of islands between Indonesia and the Philippines.

Just as important as any of these is the “virtual caliphate” of cyberspace. The internet binds together the amorphous cloud of jihadist groups, spreads the ideology, weaves together the “single narrative” that Islam is under attack, popularises militant acts and distributes terrorist know-how. Because al-Qaeda is so dispersed, the fight against it has strained an international order still based on sovereign states.

This special report will attempt to answer the impossible question posed in 2003 in a leaked memo from Donald Rumsfeld, then America’s defence secretary: “Today, we lack metrics to know if we are winning or losing the global war on terror. Are we capturing, killing or deterring and dissuading more terrorists every day than the madrassas and the radical clerics are recruiting, training and deploying against us?”

 

                                                                     ----The Economist

 

 

 

 

在外婆家里窝了两个星期，实在是觉得如天堂般的梦幻与不可思议。别的不说，光看这丰盛的早中晚饭加两顿点心，还有那突飞猛进的体重和日益圆润的体形，便可想而知了。。。。比起自己一个人在美国除了紫菜汤就是番茄汤的日子，此不说吾幸福，更待何时？

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Inflation; Inflation; Inflation;Inflation

抱歉，抱歉，各位实在是抱歉。。。。。。。。

本人现在在上海已经陷入癫狂状态，成天忙着区分熟词偏意和本意的区别．．成天听着老师们溜着一口口每秒钟１０个字的上海普通话，一句你好吗都能变出１０个完全不同的版本．．没给整个脑残就算是万幸了．．实在是抽不出时间上网，本来就没怎么上过中文课的我如今徘徊在主观思想和客观理念的旋涡中．．．．英文没什么长进，中文倒是进步神速．．．．真想绕着上海跑一圈发泄发泄．．

话不多说，在这里祝在德国要考试的那位小姐考试顺利．．．．

　　　　　　　　　已经回国了的那位豆子先生把手机号发邮件给我．．．．生日快乐先．．

　　　　　　　　　爸爸妈妈身体健康．．（白说）．．．还有什么．．．．想起来会加的．．

 

还有．．之前那个．．．谁．．．问我是谁．．．

　　　　　　　　　我就是我啊．．．还能是谁．．．．

 

Ｐ．Ｓ．这篇不算文章的文章．各位看得懂就回一下，看不懂就当没看过．．

　　　　还有告诫各位．．．没是不要回国上新东方．要上也要做好准备．．本人什么书没翻就进入了地狱．．．

　　　　管他ＳＡＴ还是ＡＣＴ．．．我都不知道现在自己讲的是哪国语言了．．．．．．以上纯属自我发泄．．．

还能说什么呢？

我回来了。20小时的飞机承载着我的思念和我一切的眷恋。

 

我回来了，无论周围的事物是否改变。我回来了。

我的过去，我的记忆。。。。。。。

 

我回来了。。

I sat in a bar awhile back with one former CIA officer who used to ride in the back of the CIA executive planes. he was describing a rendition to a country I cannot name. "We had captured a group of terrorists," he said, "all equipped with all the tools necessary to cause a grea loss of life. and then I was faced with a dilemma. If I handed them over to the local authorities, I knew from experience they would  be released in weeks....

 

Sixty years ago the Allied powers constituted in Nuremberg Tribunals to pass judgment successfully on the most henious of Nazi crimes. And they did so despite granting rights to prisoners, such as the right to hear the evidence against them, that went far beyond those offered to today's terrorist suspects....

 

Politicians in Washington are still considering Bush's proposals. Many share his desire for a political fix to "work around" both the Supreme Court and the Geneva conventions. They are seeking ways to keep Guantanamo open adn to maintain unfettered powers to interrogate, transport, and imprison alleged terrorists........

 

As I said. America's program of extraodinary renditions and harsh treatments for prisoners have not, when considered strategicaly, been weapons "against" terrorism.

Should we really cheer when every time a new repressive measure is approved by Congress or the President??

 

今天不知道怎么了，半天下来只做了两张review sheet，American Nation 也复习得三三两两。脑子里总是围绕着800，790，780，中毒了我。

 

很久没有给家人打电话了，拿起手机，摁下那久违而熟悉的数字，听着从未觉得悦耳的嘟嘟声，许久，天籁般的声音，倒映在我的脑海中。

说着口吃的中文，被家人惹得开怀大笑的我，再次翻开了今早被合上的书页。

 

书啊，知识啊。。。。某某说，我是不是该去读资治通鉴了？？

数学！数学！！数学！！！！！！我。。每天和你奋战十八小时，我看你还怎么嚣张！！

 

筹款进展出奇的理想，半天就有320美元了。。继续继续。。

刚听到地震的消息的时候实在是没有什么感触，所以被很多朋友称为冷血。（对不起了。。。）

 

终于忙完了专业，等到静下心来思考文化课的时候，觉得这一年自己好像什么都没学。那些知识都能倒背如流了，实在不知道是好事还是坏事。每天从书包里整理出来一大堆一大堆的资料，不禁感叹原来自己终于变得如此好学了。说实话，能做个正常的学生，感觉真的很好。每天虽然被频繁的考试和作业包围着，还要接受高考的慰问，但也不乏充实与简单的快乐。至于这简单快乐的背后那来自对于未来的渺茫，实在是不愿意再深入研究了。

还记得在考试之前和老妈说，人家命都快没了，自己还在紧张个破考试，实在是觉得有点。。怎么说呢。。

 

明天在学校发起募捐活动，为了让自己那帮金头发蓝眼睛的同学们多掏点腰包，只好抛下众多功课上网查资料。其实我一直在逃避，逃避去看有关于地震的新闻，不是因为不关心祖国，而是怕让一个连看战争电影都能哭得死去活来的人哭得一蹋涂地。一边看着被中文所描述着的感人故事，一边冥思苦想的翻译成英文，眼泪不自觉地啪嗒啪嗒往下掉。我，原来还是我啊，还是那个不管在什么情况下看见地上有垃圾都回拾起来的我（为此某某差科打岔说我以后有当清洁工的天分，其实也没什么不好的啊，那些学完environmental science的还不都是“人民”的清洁工），还是那个三年前的我。

 

虽然总是告诉自己要坚强，不能哭，就连同学聚会的时候说起一个人在异国他乡生活也只有我一个女生没哭。但是那天突然看到书上写的，哭，有时候是坚强的，因为那时敢于面对自己脆弱的表现。

 

十六岁的我，十六岁的她们和他们，身处在不同的时空，不同的角落，不同的责任与不同的命运。唯一相同的，便是我们都正是十六岁，我们成长着，哭了或笑了，正对这个世界微笑着或是正在向这个世界告别，不管怎样，我们都在成长。

 

欠缺了太多的知识，告诉自己，没有关系，我有别人没有的；欠缺了太多的经历，告诉自己，没有关系，我还有时间；欠缺了太多的爱，告诉自己，没有关系，我，会爱你们。

 

老妈大人看到此文不知有何感想？大概会在我那记录自己所有第一次的本子上多加两笔吧。。第一次用中文写那么多，第一次把她放进我的唠叨里，叽里呱啦的。

老妈，老爸，我，真的很想谢谢你们。。（又被我妈预言中了，中国的小孩因为地震长大了不少。。唉。。妈啊。。。。）

The life lived cannot be rejected to live afresh a new one
The time passed can never again be regained
The youthful vision can never again be visualized
But the child, youth and old age remind us of the life lived.

The old memory and the new reality give a vicarious pleasure
At least to have this pleasure, a child is most essential.
Seeing the natural development of the child, longings can be satiated
And before our own eyes, the child achieving the bliss can be enjoyed